Appointment With God.
So can I just vent with you guys for a few moments? I was/am so spiritually jacked up this morning. Last night I knew that I had a very important meeting with God, but I fell asleep. I know some people are thinking, “Is it really that serious?” But yes! It is that serious. Monday night God was pouring a lot into me and I had to cut him short because I got distracted with something else. All throughout the day yesterday I was telling myself that I had a meeting with God that night so that he can continue to pour into me and I knew that he really needed me to pray about a few things.
When last night rolled around, I got caught up with a client and by the time I got home it was about 9:00. So when I walked through the door I’m like, “Okay Dominique. You have to get A, B, and C done and then finish off the night in prayer.” So I get A and B done, but when it was time for me to do C, problem after problem kept arising until the point where I was aggravated. In the midst of that, I was talking with a friend – which I don’t regret because he was giving me a good word. But besides that, by the time my catastrophe was done, it was about 1:00 in the morning! Where in the world did time go? Now then, God knows that I stay up late to talk to him, but last night I fell right to sleep.
As I was sleeping, I was having some very very interesting dreams and everytime something dramatic happened in my dream, God would wake me up. Why was he waking me up? Because he wanted me to write. Remember my post from yesterday about God telling me that he wants me to write more? Well, here was my opportunity to record my dreams and write them down on paper. And you know what I did? I was disobedient and I forced myself to go back to sleep! HOW DARE I! I knew that I was having those dreams for a reason. I do remember some of them briefly, but I know that if I recorded them, I would know everything. And to top it off, God was giving me prophesies in my dreams! Whenever I woke up, I woke up with a word in my spirit! God was talking to me about grace a lot while I was sleep. I kept seeing the word grace when I woke up.
When I woke up this morning, firstly.. I woke up late – which threw me waaaay off. I didn’t even have time to stop at the gas station like I had planned yesterday. So here I am praying that God would give me grace to get to my destination! As I was driving this morning I’m like, “God, I really need to get my schedule together.” I usually run off of a schedule/to-do list and a calendar. My iPhone and my Macbook hold my LIFE. But, I messed up yesterday which totally jacked me up. I know the scriptures. Yes, God loves me and he’s not condemning me. No, I don’t need the “encouragement” or a pat on the back. Honestly, I already know that I’m just being hard on myself and I can’t help it. There was something that I needed to do last night and I didn’t do it.
I wanted to title this post “Appointments With God”, because many times God will let us know that we have an appointment with him. Whether it’s for prayer or even for worship. He desires that valuable time with us. The same way we would schedule a doctor’s appointment or a dinner in our calendar, we should do the same thing with the quality time we spend with God. Not saying that God should be kept on a schedule, but I do believe that we should give him the time that he’s worthy of. The time that you spend with him is far more precious than time spent on Facebook or Twitter.
Sigh* Now that I got that out, I do feel a little better. But I do count this a lesson learned…